Advice Needed

[FordFan86]

Sorry if this post is a bit jumbled and hard to understand I dont feel the best right now.
I just got my letter from Uni, I was accepeted into the course i applied for (Mechanical and Manufacturing engineering) it sounds like an ok thing to do. anyway i made the phone call and i accepted and defered for a year, now I have my mum telling me that I have made a mistake and that I won't go and do uni next yr as I will be having to much fun this year (I have also been accepted into a TAFE course for autmotive mechanics, repairs, spray paint etc) Then i plan on working for 6 months or seeing what happens.

I am interested in the course and it would probably be a handy thing to have several years down the track (despite me hating the fact that time actually doesn't stop, i wish i could just pick a time like 6 months ago and jsut have the world freeze ther forever) I am 18 (19 in may) (a yr older than most kids the same yr lvl as me for SA as i moved here from Vic 4-5 years ago, the schooling is slightly different) (I also partly blame the time i moved for part of my troubles now, I came in term 2 of year 8 which is the 1st year of high school in SA (been in HS for a yr in Vic already, everyone knew everyone else from primary school or though the 1st term of school already) anyway I don't know what to think or die, my life is just a big mess :\ im sitting here not knowing what to think or do almost in tears for some stupid reason.

I have SFA friends as most of them left school or started smoking dope, or both... i dont have a g/f right now and havent for 18 yrs (always just had close female friends, up until i moved to SA pretty much), the next thing that shits me is this girl i really like and care about, the situation with her is complicated, i feel being with her would make things better, again thats only a small fix for the larger things.
i just don't know where my life is going im on the verge of a breakdown :\ and i just needed to get some of that shit off my chest.
leaving yr 12 is big shock, see people 5 days a week, now i see practically nobody, work 3 days a week in a job that was ok for some cash after school but is a dead ender for anything else (guy i know has been working there 6 yrs, i can see he isn't going to far but u never know, he has found someone, has a child on the way and is getting married), ontop of all that i just moved houses after i finished schools to 20+minutes further south from the city (and pretty much everything else for that matter)... also pretty sure I am/are about to have my licenced cancelled (speed both times, + other offences like no P plates the 2nd time, cost me just under $800 total, which is a ****ing lot to anybody, no im not a hoon, overtaking one time, rolling down a hill the other)

Right now i just sit in my room and play music (probably a bad idea just being alone listening to normally just depressing shit) it keeps me sort of happy for awhile but thats it, i am pretty sure im going to do this tafe course and have a bit of fun (after 12 yrs of school i think i deserve that, tho my final yr of school wasnt bad, I spoke to all the teachers got to know some of them very well, and i was thinking of doing yr 13 just to go back and be around people)

I really don't know what else to say, I think the first thing i need to do is see this girl and work things out with her because it's just running me down phycially and mentally thinking about her, next step will probably be TAFE (tho tomorrow i am going to school to drop a few things off, i will speak to the councellor there, he may be of some help)... Flame me for any of this if you will i couldn't give 2 stuffs i've sat here and typed it out and just need some advice from people who have been there and done that who know what the real world is like (and despite being told by adults so many times about what life is like it's something that really cannot be learnt, it has to be lived unfortunately)

/end rant