Depression, Anxiety

[creative]

thanks to the couple of members that messaged me. I still dont feel good enough to talk about it so apologies if I didnt reply.. I tried, but couldnt send them.

Im still pottering at home which is helping and I have been trying to reach out to so called friends during this time. Unfortunately I am seeing who cares and who doesnt.. so far its nobody, even down to the point where one person blocked me... which was nice to say I had helped them when they were low. Gotta say, that helped me not feel alone... /sarcasm

I have narrowed down a few of my feelings now and I feel I know what gets to me so I have been avoiding those situations....

Appetite is still out the window, as is sleep but hey... I'm here so I guess that makes it OK.

[whitelion65]

Hang in there, Creative.
I’ve been pretty good, mood wise lately, but have just been diagnosed with a brain condition.
I am in hospital at this moment, with surgery tomorrow.
Hopefully it will help!
I’ll let you know when I get through to the other side.

[MercuryT]

Originally Posted by creative

thanks to the couple of members that messaged me. I still dont feel good enough to talk about it so apologies if I didnt reply.. I tried, but couldnt send them.

No need to apologise mate.

Most understand but those who've suffered depression in your experience know very well how hard it is.

Look after yourself and keep taking steps forward - day at a time (even hour at a time)

MercT

[MercuryT]

Originally Posted by whitelion65

Hang in there, Creative.
I’ve been pretty good, mood wise lately, but have just been diagnosed with a brain condition.
I am in hospital at this moment, with surgery tomorrow.
Hopefully it will help!
I’ll let you know when I get through to the other side.

Damn. That's horrible.

Good luck WhiteLion and yes we'll all hear from you soon mate.

[FTE217]

All the very best white lion !

[MercuryT]

My work check up early next Month. (I have mental health issues)

I don't feel required but HR do so I'll attend as requested.

Apparently mental health a huge problem ATM.

Speak up guys and girls. Seek help.

People will respect you for it.

Anyone says "soft" etc is a reflection on them not you.

[whitelion65]

Hi guys. Back online, but feeling fuzzy, and very much sorry for myself.
Not that I’m after any sympathy. I’ve been looking forward to this for the past two weeks, as the surgery offers answers to some of my problems. My therapist was amazed by my change at the last visit. Wanted to know why the positive change......HOPE.
Hang in there folks, look after each other, don’t be dragged down by the negatives.
Love, peace and mungbeans! ��

[FTE217]

great news mate, HOPE and being positive - hug to you pal.

[zilo]

Originally Posted by sneaky

I spent multiple sessions with the different psychologists but can't remember much from the sessions at all (maybe 10-15 sessions).. I know with one that was younger than me I spent my time thinking how could she know about marriage breakdowns and kids etc when it looked like she was fresh out of uni.

The psychiatrist I clicked with ...

yeah...Psychology is not a medical degree...it is a research degree.
My sister is head of Psychology dept in a big Australian Uni and they are her words.

Psychiatry on the other hand is a clinical degree.

I would not waste time (aka money) on psychologists.

[Citroënbender]

I respectfully disagree. If they can get a person discussing things they’re having trouble digesting, in a way that simultaneously encourages review of the items, it absolutely can help.

[oldel]

Originally Posted by mondeomatureguy

Hi guys,
When I got divorced and lost my house and a lot of money but still had my job. I had to find some where else to live and I found a granny flat not far from where I worked then in Parramatta.

I was in bed looking at the ceiling one night thinking "how the hell did my life get to this"?

A few nights later I used to go to bed around midnight and wake up the same time at around 3am in the morning.
This went on for a week waking up the same time so in the end I went to the Doctor and we had a chat.

He asked me "do I feel suicidal"? which of course I said "NO" He then gave me a Doctors Certificate for ten days and told me "just to go away for a while".

I got in the car and took off best thing I did I ended up driving down to Apollo Bay and it did me the world of good.

Some times you think your the only one going thru this and nobody cares which isn't the case at all there's people out there to help you and listen to you.

And if you end up even worse than that, it can get a little better.
I lost my job and my business before losing everything else. I didn't need anyone to listen because I was mute anyway.
It took a couple of years of even finding new lows before I could actually speak - That was the real challenging times nothing but muteness and suicide on my mind. No one could help because I couldn't talk (or even type)

No, that pit of despair never leaves, just some days are better if I don't think, or talk about real things.

[Full Noise]

Originally Posted by oldel

And if you end up even worse than that, it can get a little better.
I lost my job and my business before losing everything else. I didn't need anyone to listen because I was mute anyway.
It took a couple of years of even finding new lows before I could actually speak - That was the real challenging times nothing but muteness and suicide on my mind. No one could help because I couldn't talk (or even type)

No, that pit of despair never leaves, just some days are better if I don't think, or talk about real things.

You’ve found new lows but you’ve managed to deal with it. This shows that you’re stronger than those destructive feelings that you had. We all have those thoughts at some point but the key is to not let them overpower your thoughts. You’ve lost a lot, but focus on the good things you still have in your life, regardless of how small they may seem at the time. Look at this difficult time as a snapshot in time and it will be a small part of your life in the overall scheme of things.

I understand about the pit of despair you speak of, believe me I do, and in my case, I had to make friends with it. Once I accepted that, it helped me better understand ways to overcome it. That fact that you’re still here shows that you’re strong, even stronger to be able to discuss it on a forum like this.

Today is a new day, but it’s a better day.

[FTE217]

Welcome back Full Noise and typical wise post.

[Full Noise]

Originally Posted by FTE217

Welcome back Full Noise and typical wise post.

G'day mate, geez it's been a while. I think you had a bronze colored XR8 when we cought up in Wagga, would that be right? Glad that you're doing alright mate. I've been away for quiet a few years, partly for the topic of this thread. Thanks for the kind words.

[FTE217]

Long time,
Cheez Wagga, time flies ! :(
haha not bronze metoerite XR8. I miss that Ford.
Hey doing ok but you know, lifes ups and downs - thankfully not as hard as some.
Few years alright, not many around from our ol days but many new members that are good people as well.
Look after yourself !

[GasoLane]

Originally Posted by Full Noise

G'day mate, geez it's been a while. I think you had a bronze colored XR8 when we cought up in Wagga, would that be right? Glad that you're doing alright mate. I've been away for quiet a few years, partly for the topic of this thread. Thanks for the kind words.

When were you here and not telling me?

[Full Noise]

Originally Posted by GasoLane

When were you here and not telling me?

You were there, lol. That was the day that Austin organised. Would have to around fifteen years back.

[GasoLane]

Originally Posted by Full Noise

You were there, lol. That was the day that Austin organised. Would have to around fifteen years back.

Oh yeah, I was selling Raffle tickets and you were chatting up any female that looked half decent

I had a rough week at work...

I helped pull a driver out of a crash I was 2nd responder to last week at Bajool.

Cab crushed by A trailer B trailer dangling off bridge , grass fire ensued and I had no choice but to spring into action.

Turns out it was all for nought as the driver passed away the next day, he had a heart attack but was brought back by the ambo's.

I was just totally spent and relieved at the same time that we got the fire out.

The transport company has been brilliant offering up support, i have so far declined but i am very thankful.

I made a few new friends that night and utilised Facebook pages to try and limit the impact this incident was about to have on the traffic flow.

Not much sleep answering phone calls from the local news stations and the police wanting witness statements and what not, it was a very tough week especially being on nightshift.

Fast forward 5 days and I started coming around, i even revealed what i had been through to a few colleagues who were astonished I was even at work lol.

If I never attend a traffic crash again it will still be to soon, i'm no hero but I truly understand the fight or flight theory now, i just wish the outcome had been a bit different for the driver... RIP

Still havn't quite explained it completely to my wifey and i havn't even thought about it again until tonight :/

But tomorrow is another day

Peace out Daz.

[oldel]

Originally Posted by Full Noise

Today is a new day, but it’s a better day.

Things'll get brighter
Some day, yeah
We'll get it together and we'll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter

Yeah right...

[oldel]

Originally Posted by Full Noise

Today is a new day, but it’s a better day.

Today I've learned that all the plant pots I bought last year (it was a big budget hit when money is tight), all got thrown away.

Everything ****ed when you don't have your own place. Bought them last year and went without to afford them. Started of planting some more unique seeds I'd saved, like red noodle beans (aka chinese yard longs), some uncommon leafy greens. Then herbs I can't go without when cooking (thyme, basil, parsley, coriander), then tried some rare chilli seeds I still had.
Potting mix sucked so everything died. Typical and what was I thinking, don't be optimistic because everything goes wrong. I stacked the pots up and threw out the soil.
Started on project ****ty BA ute with a dodgey trans and that's why I'm here...

Today I went looking for the pots again to begin afresh and yeah, pots thrown out too and nothing I can do about it if I want a roof over my head. $80 worth. I can't have nothing if I can't have a place of my own.

Wake up when I want a smoke, go to bed when I've drunk enough. There's nothing else because no control. (been depressed my entire life but fought it 38 years until it took over 6 years ago so I got hit hard and had to deal with it on my own, as lifelong loner depressed people don't have friends or support, or even know normal)

[buggerlugs]

Originally Posted by oldel

Today I've learned that all the plant pots I bought last year (it was a big budget hit when money is tight), all got thrown away.

Everything ****ed when you don't have your own place. Bought them last year and went without to afford them. Started of planting some more unique seeds I'd saved, like red noodle beans (aka chinese yard longs), some uncommon leafy greens. Then herbs I can't go without when cooking (thyme, basil, parsley, coriander), then tried some rare chilli seeds I still had.
Potting mix sucked so everything died. Typical and what was I thinking, don't be optimistic because everything goes wrong. I stacked the pots up and threw out the soil.
Started on project ****ty BA ute with a dodgey trans and that's why I'm here...

Today I went looking for the pots again to begin afresh and yeah, pots thrown out too and nothing I can do about it if I want a roof over my head. $80 worth. I can't have nothing if I can't have a place of my own.

Wake up when I want a smoke, go to bed when I've drunk enough. There's nothing else because no control. (been depressed my entire life but fought it 38 years until it took over 6 years ago so I got hit hard and had to deal with it on my own, as lifelong loner depressed people don't have friends or support, or even know normal)

Well keep spilling your guts out on here. There is always someone in this thread for support.............

[whitelion65]

Hang in there older.
You sound like you’re ready to talk, even if very angry...that’s all ok. Talking is the main thing. Can you get to see a GP, and get on a mental health plan? I hated this step, but it saved me. I’m not out of the woods, but I think I’m still walking in that direction.
Take care brother, hard to offer advice without sounding like a d!ck. But get rest, talk, don’t drink too much....if you do, don’t come down on yourself.
Keep talking on here if you feel that helps. Lots of great blokes (and one or two girls) always happy to help.
God Bless

[Full Noise]

G’day older,
Small steps mate, trust me on this. Even the smallest thing that makes your day better is a positive and please try to focus on this. Try not to worry about things that you can’t control.

Originally Posted by whitelion65

Hang in there older.
You sound like you’re ready to talk, even if very angry...that’s all ok. Talking is the main thing. Can you get to see a GP, and get on a mental health plan? I hated this step, but it saved me. I’m not out of the woods, but I think I’m still walking in that direction.
Take care brother, hard to offer advice without sounding like a d!ck. But get rest, talk, don’t drink too much....if you do, don’t come down on yourself.
Keep talking on here if you feel that helps. Lots of great blokes (and one or two girls) always happy to help.
God Bless

Very wise words here mate.

Please take Whitelion’s advice on this. The mental health care plan will give you a number of sessions with a professional who can really help. What area of Perth are you in? I can start looking online for people who can help you.

I really understand the pit of despair you mentioned in your earlier post. I won’t go into detail here about my situation but please believe me when I say that I understand where your mindset is. You’re not alone here, you’ve reached out and there’s people here you can chat with who really understand.

Look at the new day as a new possibility, that’s what I do and most of the time it works for me. It didn’t always as I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel but with people helping me, I was able to see things more clearly. Like Whitelion, I’m not out of the woods yet either but I’m on the right track. I’ve had people help me and part of that deal is that you take what you’ve learned and use it to help others.

Keep your chin up mate.

[Full Noise]

Originally Posted by TrVrPhiLpsiNdstrys

I had a rough week at work...

G'day Daz,
It will take a bit of time to sink in but if you need to discuss how you're feeling, please talk to a professional as they can really put things into perspective. If the transport company has offered assistance, don't feel bad and take it up.
Whether you realise it or not, they've in an informal way, "taken you under their wing" so to speak. That truck driver that you helped in his time of need was loved by people, family and friends and you now share a connection with his loved ones because "you" were there for him. It will take some time but you will get through this because you are experiencing the grief first hand of the events that took place.

Hug your misses extra tight and enjoy your day as best as you can.

No worries Dan thanks matey, i went for a walk on the beach this morning world's away from last week ...

We don't always agree on AFF and I sure have been a ******** in a past life on here, but just typing this out has put me in a much better head space

Thanks team and really thank you Danny, it is much more appreciated than you will ever know mate..x..

[CoupeKing]

Just keep fighting the fight.

[Sprintey]

Hi Oldel,

I might be able to help a little bit on the gardening. But first: so there I was laid up in bed after surviving heavy medical situation and nearly dying (led to anxiety, something like PTSD I guess, that's it's own story) and I'd made a planter box and planted some wheat, which had sprouted nicely. I just wanted to grow some wheat. Spent a bit of time on wheat farms when I was younger.

So my mum flew over to help and she's all busyness, finding things to do, making the house immaculate, being a real help. Then she starts weeding and finds my wheat. Later I go "Mum, where's my wheat?" and she had weeded the lot out!

OK - how to get really good planter boxes without paying for pots. We use broccoli boxes that you can get free from the grocer. They are white, about 50cm by 20cm. When we get one, we take the lid and then cut it down so it slides inside the box section. We get some plumbing pipe and cut about 5cm high offcuts of it, place 3 of these in the bottom. Then the cut-down lid goes on top of these. We then cut a hole in one of the ends of the box section, at about that 4 to 5cm height off the bottom of the box. This is a water overflow hole. In one corner, we put a length of about 40cm of the plumbing pipe, vertically, straight down, and cut a hole in the corner of the lid so the pipe goes below this - this pipe is the water top-up. On top of the lid, we put in potting mix, manure etc and then plant our seeds.

I'm not a good gardener, but it is crazy how easy it is to get a good a yield using these. Everything I've grown in them works. If I forget for a day or 3, no worries, just top up with a hose until the water overflows out the hole. The plants get nice soil and constant water, their roots grow down into the water. Over a couple of years the styrofoam will begin to leak a little, so get another box.

A bit of food for thought. I've been through a lot in the anxiety/fear of death dept, think I've made it through (you reach acceptance), these threads are a really great place to reach out with a little anonymity if you wish, I wish you well, cheers!

[blueoval]

First time posting here.

Been suffering from Depression for probably 10yrs on and off but over the past 2 years its gotten worse and most recently in last 6months.

In a nutshell, my dad passed away from Cancer after a 5yr battle in April. Its been real tough on the family. My wifes Aunt passed away from Cancer only 3 weeks ago. My dads twin brother is in hospital at the moment dealing with shingles in his eye but is on 24hr oxygen and probably wont last out the rest of this year.

Im not writing here to look for sympathy. Its actually the first time Ive spoken about it. The wife knows I go through dark days. But I say nothing about it as I dont want to burden her already busy schedule with additional issues.

My Anxiety has tripled in the past 5yrs. I am finding it difficult to want to hang with friends. Also, I am finding I am arranging things with others only to pull out last minute due to the anxiety getting to me. I find I feel safer being at home and doing my own thing. I live with other members of my family. They know times have been hard and tend to cut me some slack when I tend to come out with outbursts or anger or scathing sarcasm and occasional aggressive tones. I am working on my attitude and taking some natural medications to help with my mood swings.

Anyway, I thought Id share as I know it helps to discuss things with others openly before it really becomes something more sinister.